03

Looking at this picture makes me want brown hairs again. I look the best tan with brown, I think.

I also miss having a life. Maybe I just need to throw myself out there, but there isn't much out here in Bumfuck, USA.

I can't wait to get Cody's income tax in. His will be in before mine and little does he know-- I am going shopping. I need a new-do so bad. My head is looking like a raggedy ann doll. Lately all of my problems have been due to my looks. I am bored with them. I have had the same hairstyle for like 4 years now. But my hair is so thin so I don't have many options.

I have slept two hours and have to be at work at 4:20. Ugh. I suck.

Work sucks. And being responsible sucks. I wish I were a kid again.

Also, This is my favorite picture in the world.

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02

I woke up today and couldn't open my eyes. All that was there was black. I had this intense bolt of pain all over my head and I felt like I couldn't breathe. The light was impossible to look at and I had to bury myself under the covers to even open my lids. It was the worst migraine I have ever had. I had to miss work because I couldn't get out of bed.



I have been getting a lot of headaches lately. I was looking up signs of pregnancy and headaches and some other symptoms I have been having are on there. That would be insane if I was pregnant. It would suck but be kind of awesome at the same time. I am going to wait to the end of the week to take a test, so I suppose we will see what happens.

I took two Tylenol PMs a little bit ago and am fighting sleep right now. It's getting harder and harder to type so I am going to go lay down with my baby.

01

I hate the fact that I am not able to sleep like a normal person. I am so fucking tired right now, and sleep will not come. I have struggled with this problem for so long. I am pretty positive that is why I hated school so much. I fell asleep all of the time during classes. I couldn't even begin to explain how I bullshitted my way to A's and B's, but I did. So for that I am pretty awesome.

Otherwise I am stressed out.

Cody and I have been staying with my grandparents because there was a big ice storm here and a lot of people have no power. My family knows this other family. The woman has Lupus and has a husband and a little daughter. Her father just had a stroke and has to have home healthcare which requires electricity. Also his medicine has to be refrigerated, which also requires electricity. Not-so luckily for them, they are some of the people who have been without power for the past week. So Cody and I have been letting them stay at our apartment so they can have power and try to have a normal day-to-day. And so the pops can get his medicine and get well. I know we are doing a really awesome thing for these people, but I am about to go crazy. I am not used to answering to anyone. I am an adult and live on my own. I am engaged and pay my own bills. I am not used to having someone question me constantly. I just miss privacy. Cody and I haven't slept in the same bed since last week. I miss just laying next to him and hearing him snore. I just miss being in OUR bed. I know my stress about that is minimal to those people's, but it is definitely frustrating being thrown out of my element. I just hope their power returns soon. Before I go completely insane.

Tomorrow is coming too fast. I am going to attempt sleep again, so hopefully it will find me.